June 25th, I will never forget you..

There has definitely been some wonderful days that have been shared with multiple people in my life this year.. but NONE of those days could ever compare to the day I had yesterday!

First, I woke up and stretched like a cat haha then I got up and saw my rat, Ronnie, looking at me. I smiled and walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth and do my daily 'Mirror Mirror on the wall' thing..(don't ask) I cracked myself up brushing my teeth cuz I kept thinking about silly things like.. A horse and a donkey playing hockey, and Swedish Fish having a sword fight with Gumby! Just ridiculous stuff. When I was finished I walked out and tripped on nothing, making me laugh even more at myself giving me a happy smile after. So after getting up I went to my room to get my glasses, walked downstairs, turned on the TV and you would never believe what show was on! LAW&ORDER:SVU!!!!!! My favorite show in the world.. A marathon was going on! I jumped for joy when I saw Benson's lovely face lol I just couldn't believe it cuz the night before I had searched for it and it didn't show up till SATURDAAY morning. Welp, after 10 seconds of giggling, a stupid commercial came on.. I got sad.. Untiiiil my favorite commercial came on, yuh know the one where the lady in the red dress is singing and dancing to the 'I Can't Believe It's Not Butter'? Call me weird fer likin it but.. I do. ANYHOO, haha I uh..got off the couch after the commercial ended and walked to my computer soon to find out that I had to erase everything on my iPod and load up every band and such, giving up Yogi bear :/.. but the sound of A Flock of Seagulls, Hillsong, Damone coming out of the laptop speakers PLUS the voice of L&O:SVU's cast from the TV, gave me such..happiness! It was weird.. but it was one of those 4 hours where all that I am thinking about are the good things in life. Like, me breathing, good music still alive, Jesus in me, it was Friday(JCC) and I guess the collision of knowing I have all that just made my soul arise! I started singing out loud, dancing around, and felt so free. 5 o' clock came up and had to get ready for church, so when I go upstairs I find a bunch of texts from people I rarely talk to! Surprising for me.. Well walking into Savemart for Bobby pins I noticed that with the help of my sunglasses guys were checkin me out! I have never been checked out before, it felt so.. I don't know.. Lol. But I felt pretty, at last. Which brings me to the drive over to JCC, I notice a group of teen boys rolling down their window to wave to me! I felt even prettier, but I was annoyed so I sped up in front of them aha oh! I forgot to mention that I was drinking a yellow Monster on the drive, which only means extra energy and extra happiness. Since, Monster isss my FAV drink.. Eventually, I get to JCC around 6:50.. I'm pretty upset cuz I can't find any parking, but wa la God provides a spot in my faaavorite spot up front in the Main. There I am walking to Urgency when I see a friend I haven't seen in months! That made me so happy. She ended up hanging out with me the whole night. Well as we are walking throughout the crowd of newcomers, I see Alan E. which he too I haven't seen in months, that too made me so happy to see him! To skip it to when church begins, worship was.. man.. just increeeedible! Amazing, fantastic, peaceful, moving, loving, powerful, convicting..just.. unexplainable hahaha. After, worship ended I was literally weak in the knees, I kid you not my arms were shaking and I could barely stand without feeling the need to either kneel and praise some more or jump up and down fer God! I was on FIRE! To cool off I played pool..alone..like always.. haha I had to stop though cuz I was burnin with God's thunder. I mean, it was intense. I kept hearing God's strong voice and his marvelous hands holding me, moving me to go and keep going.. it was crazy. Ending the night, I drove home sipping a chocolate milkshake listening to techno to wake me up, feeling the wind upon my face with warm air along. Looking up, what do I see? A FULL MOON! It's a symbol of hope for me, last year at my birthday.. I was lost.. So God told me to look up, I saw a full moon, He said.. "Whenever you feel lost.. or just can't seem to find your way back to me.. look up and you'll find me." eversince then the full moon has been my gas station/checkpoint, yuh know? Yeah.. Well I got home around midnight..ending my 25th..

There yuh have it! If you had a great day like mine, tell me :) I'd love to hear it

:)

I call your name.. Lord, you reply!
You bring your kingdom.. To stand by my side..
Giver of life, all that I need... Father, you're EVERYTHING that's precious to me! Since there is no one like you, Lord, in ALL the earth!!!

Socks

Okay.. So you see this sock? I'm the foot. The beautiful feet who brings good news :).. the sock? Is God!! He comforts me, keeps me warm, protects me, makes my fit in any sort of shoe(situation) and comes in different sizes and appearances! Each day I put on my sock I say to myself, "I'm okay now". So I hope you guys use socks.. lol other wise.. You're weird! Just kidding.. But whenever you forget your role or Gods.. Remember that He's the amazing sock and you are His beautiful feet who, should, bring good news!

To be or not to be

Just..wow! Looking back at the time where I almost went rolling down a steep mountain and stopped, or when I got thrown into a metal pole and yet came out of the hospital with nothing but a bruised eye thrills me! I mean, to know that God was with me through it all even when I didn't believe in Him. It's amazing how no matter what you go through in life, God will be there. I never really thought about it until mum reminded me of all those crazy things that happened to me...

I see on the news that millions of innocent children die of some sickness, or get raped then killed for no reason. That could've been me.. But thankfully, it wasn't. I know now that what I told myself all those years about me being a mistake, isn't true! If I was a mistake, I wouldn't even be here.. and if you were a mistake YOU wouldn't be reading this! That's why it kills me to know that chicks are out there having abortions. No baby is a mistake, even if the girl was raped and never intended to have a child. God wanted that child for a reason! There is no such thing as a person being useless... Heck, for all we know the baby from that girl could've been the first Christian president! But that girl thought, 'I don't want the baby'. Now even though some one is useless to you, doesn't mean that he's useless to someone else, like God perhaps..

When me mum was pregnant with me.. She actually had no idea I was in there, and it turns out she has been taking these meds so that she wouldn't get pregnant! So when she started to get sick she visited the hospital, few hours later the doctor comes back saying, "Congratulations, your pregnant!". Me mum was shocked to find a baby living inside of her, despite the killing pills inside there! Impossible, right? Well that just proves that when God wants some one to be alive, it's gonna happen haha.. To convince myself of this, I just remember how God is. If God doesn't care about you, you wouldn't be here! But since you are here.. well OBVIOUSLY he cares about you and you OBVIOUSLY have a purpose! Why else would the devil be messing with you?! The devil is like a rhino, he has a good sense of smell and sound, but not sight. See? He can't see what's going to happen to you, but when you reak of doubt and say negative things, it's easier for him to target you. The devil(rhino) may seem threatening at first, but the more you speak of God and cleanse yourself with the Holy Ghost.. they can't target you as easily. That's when the doubt begins to wear off and the fear runs to it's mummy! Ha! Good riddens..

So just remember of the rhino next time you come across an opportunity to either have faith or to doubt. If you go with faith, it can't find you. If you go with doubt, it can smell it and sense it, then attack you! God wants you here! The Devil does not want you here, clearly. So the more you think positive about your existence and it's purpose, think of how more difficult it is for the "rhino" to come near you. It works! I think of that all the time. Each time I get filled with doubt about a certain dream or something, I just think of that dumb rhino. Can't see a thing but is lingering around me, trying to hear or smell what triggers the attack. Lately? I haven't seen that rhino.


Whether you like it or not, we are all living on the devils(rhino) territory! So you can surely say, he hates it. Since he has hated us from the beginning, all he wants to do is get us out of his world and into hell. Do you wanna let him ruin God's plans? I sure don't.. Because I've felt the difference of being with God and without..and even though I've been going through crap all my life, even now, I've never had this peace to go along with it. That gives me enough satisfaction of who God is and why I should stay with Him. It's crazy, I know. Many of my old "friends" ask me, "What kind of God is he, if you are still going through bad things?" or "Where's that God of yours?"...oh He's with me alright.

So please.. don't let it ruin God's plans. I've had the chance to let it take me away from God, what came after was soooo not pleasure. He promises you happiness and a better life but it's all a lie, really. Once you say, "OKAY, fine. God take me!" ohhhh, boy he takes yuh. In the beginning, it's like what the heck! But as He warms up inside you, it's like you wanna go back to the past and slap yourself for not listening to Him then. It's as simple as, 'To Be Or Not To Be'..happy / joyful. It's simple! That's why I wanna show the atheists who Jesus really was, not this looney they have let the religious lead them to believe! Chastise is what Jesus had to go through to get you here today and all your doing is saying,"I have no purpose"?! Shame on you.. I was was blind, but now I see. That any one who believes they have a purpose in God's life, is.. Awesome :)

Meteor Shower

Isn't that what it feels like to you? When you finally realize that He's right there with you. The feeling is as if there are tons of meteors being shot down in front of you! Imagine.. You standing there with your eyes closed, then suddenly you hear a big boom! You open your eyes to see tons of meteors coming down.. At first, your freaking out but as you start to calm down, the shower isn't so scary or dangerous. It's so.. Showery! Lol if that's even a word.. Okay, you know that feeling when you get in the shower and it's at the perfect temperature for you? Whether it be hot or cold, er in the middle. Where you don't wanna do anything but to just stand there and relax. Like, "What could go wrong?" moment, right? Well despite the fact there's no water during this meteor shower, but there's that same feeling where you find your temperature(spot) and all you wanna do is just relax, or enjoy the moment! Around this time, when I get that feeling out of the week or month, or even year.. Is right around when Jesus out of no where, holds my hand and says "I'm here"...man just thinking of this gives me the chills! Haha... Now, this might sound weird but whenever I feel all stressed, or even alone. I go make myself a cup of Hot Chocolate, grab my iPod, swoosh it to the song Meteor Shower by Owl City, lay back drinking my Hot Chocolate then I close my eyes and picture myself in a better place, sometimes I picture myself with Jesus! After the song is over, I usually say a prayer like, "Jesus, I need you with me right now. Please come and comfort me, for if I could just see your face I know I'll be okay." it works every single time! If your a dude, you might think 'I'm a maaan' or 'Owl City? That's for girrrrls' oh hush..lol a real man will take the time meditate, letting nothing distract him during.

Now, if you didn't get that Meteor Shower thing, then you probably know about finding the 'Eye of the Storm'. It's basically the same thing except.. My version is better ;) just kidding.