To be or not to be

Just..wow! Looking back at the time where I almost went rolling down a steep mountain and stopped, or when I got thrown into a metal pole and yet came out of the hospital with nothing but a bruised eye thrills me! I mean, to know that God was with me through it all even when I didn't believe in Him. It's amazing how no matter what you go through in life, God will be there. I never really thought about it until mum reminded me of all those crazy things that happened to me...

I see on the news that millions of innocent children die of some sickness, or get raped then killed for no reason. That could've been me.. But thankfully, it wasn't. I know now that what I told myself all those years about me being a mistake, isn't true! If I was a mistake, I wouldn't even be here.. and if you were a mistake YOU wouldn't be reading this! That's why it kills me to know that chicks are out there having abortions. No baby is a mistake, even if the girl was raped and never intended to have a child. God wanted that child for a reason! There is no such thing as a person being useless... Heck, for all we know the baby from that girl could've been the first Christian president! But that girl thought, 'I don't want the baby'. Now even though some one is useless to you, doesn't mean that he's useless to someone else, like God perhaps..

When me mum was pregnant with me.. She actually had no idea I was in there, and it turns out she has been taking these meds so that she wouldn't get pregnant! So when she started to get sick she visited the hospital, few hours later the doctor comes back saying, "Congratulations, your pregnant!". Me mum was shocked to find a baby living inside of her, despite the killing pills inside there! Impossible, right? Well that just proves that when God wants some one to be alive, it's gonna happen haha.. To convince myself of this, I just remember how God is. If God doesn't care about you, you wouldn't be here! But since you are here.. well OBVIOUSLY he cares about you and you OBVIOUSLY have a purpose! Why else would the devil be messing with you?! The devil is like a rhino, he has a good sense of smell and sound, but not sight. See? He can't see what's going to happen to you, but when you reak of doubt and say negative things, it's easier for him to target you. The devil(rhino) may seem threatening at first, but the more you speak of God and cleanse yourself with the Holy Ghost.. they can't target you as easily. That's when the doubt begins to wear off and the fear runs to it's mummy! Ha! Good riddens..

So just remember of the rhino next time you come across an opportunity to either have faith or to doubt. If you go with faith, it can't find you. If you go with doubt, it can smell it and sense it, then attack you! God wants you here! The Devil does not want you here, clearly. So the more you think positive about your existence and it's purpose, think of how more difficult it is for the "rhino" to come near you. It works! I think of that all the time. Each time I get filled with doubt about a certain dream or something, I just think of that dumb rhino. Can't see a thing but is lingering around me, trying to hear or smell what triggers the attack. Lately? I haven't seen that rhino.


Whether you like it or not, we are all living on the devils(rhino) territory! So you can surely say, he hates it. Since he has hated us from the beginning, all he wants to do is get us out of his world and into hell. Do you wanna let him ruin God's plans? I sure don't.. Because I've felt the difference of being with God and without..and even though I've been going through crap all my life, even now, I've never had this peace to go along with it. That gives me enough satisfaction of who God is and why I should stay with Him. It's crazy, I know. Many of my old "friends" ask me, "What kind of God is he, if you are still going through bad things?" or "Where's that God of yours?"...oh He's with me alright.

So please.. don't let it ruin God's plans. I've had the chance to let it take me away from God, what came after was soooo not pleasure. He promises you happiness and a better life but it's all a lie, really. Once you say, "OKAY, fine. God take me!" ohhhh, boy he takes yuh. In the beginning, it's like what the heck! But as He warms up inside you, it's like you wanna go back to the past and slap yourself for not listening to Him then. It's as simple as, 'To Be Or Not To Be'..happy / joyful. It's simple! That's why I wanna show the atheists who Jesus really was, not this looney they have let the religious lead them to believe! Chastise is what Jesus had to go through to get you here today and all your doing is saying,"I have no purpose"?! Shame on you.. I was was blind, but now I see. That any one who believes they have a purpose in God's life, is.. Awesome :)